Why am I blogging? I’m not 100% sure why, but I feel like I need to. I need to get a better handle on what and why I’m thinking the way I do.
I’m so anxious about the future.
I’ve been heading for medical school for so long that I don’t know if that’s what I really want to do. I don’t really know anymore. I feel like that’s the only real goal I have any more, and everything else is just arbitrary.
All I really want is my family and farm. And my animals.
It’s like a piece of me’s been cut off since I started college and they’ve been so far away. I want that piece back.
And I want to figure out how to get it back.